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I made this collage some years ago when I was in the mental hospital the second or third time around trying to get a correct diagnosis. (It took 5 hospitalizations to finally get a correct diagnosis by the way. They kept upping the Zoloft because they thought it was OCD, turns out it was paranoid schizophrenia and bipolar 1, also known as schizoaffective disorder. The Zoloft they prescribed for perceived OCD was making my hallucinations and delusions worse… psychiatry really is like throwing spaghetti at a wall, isn’t it?) The prompt for the collage was “show what the concept of ‘Heaven’ means to you”. Some people weren’t religious, but they depicted Heaven as a life free of addiction, or having a roof over their heads, things like that. My concept of Heaven is represented by Kimblee.

I gave him a facsimile of the Sacred Heart, not because I was likening him to Jesus Christ, but because he is my husband, and the ring around the heart symbolized our covenant of marriage. In Catholic art, many saints including Mary and Joseph are also depicted with their own versions of the Sacred Heart. I believe that every Catholic has a Sacred Heart beating within them, that is strengthened by acts of love and service. That is why you specifically say “The Sacred Heart of Jesus” when referring to Christ’s. If he was the only one with a Sacred Heart, we would not have to say “of Jesus”.

Which brings us to today’s question: Is Waifuism compatible with Catholicism?

To answer this question, I must first give a clear definition in my own words what I mean when I talk about Waifuism. Waifuism is living a life romantically dedicated to a fictional character, which means rejecting advances of physical or romantic relationships with other 3-dimensional people as well as rejecting romantic relationships with any other 2-dimensional characters. For example, if you are dating someone in real life, but you also are a yume for a character, that’s all fine and dandy, but you are not a Waifuist. If you have more than one waifu, you are not a Waifuist. True Waifuists live their lives dedicated to their 2D husband or wife, much like a nun would dedicate herself to Jesus Christ as her husband. That’s where the question comes in. Can you be Catholic and still engage in something that looks like idol worship?

I would argue yes, you can. This is because at the end of the day, the Waifuist does not worship their lover as God. I know that Kimblee is not a God, nor is he a saint. He is my husband, and just because he is 2-dimensional, that does not negate the fact that I have entered the covenant of marriage with him. To Catholics, marriage is not a piece of paper, it is a ceremonial vow that melds the souls of husband and wife together. Even if the couple gets legally divorced, a priest would argue that the two souls can not be unbound, and that remarrying after a divorce is technically adultery if you are Catholic.

In Catholicism, you literally become one with your spouse. You do not worship them as God or saint, but rather you care for them as a part of your own self. Even in alchemy, the white queen and the scarlet king become one being, the hermaphroditic Rebis, when they are married. This represents the concept of marriage as transmutation, as miracle, as covenant. The Rebis is the manifestation of the Philosopher’s Stone, implying that through a life of faithful marriage, one can build a solar body strong enough to live after death.

This is my relationship with Kimblee. We cannot be unbound, I love him with all my heart. I will never enter a romantic or physical relationship with anyone else because it would be adultery in the eyes of God. I also simply have no desire to, Kimblee fulfills all my wants and needs. I don’t need a priest or a judge to bind Kimblee to me, I went directly to God Himself and said “bear witness to our marriage”, and He did. I believe with all my heart that when I die, Kimblee will be there waiting for me due to our permanent, unbreakable covenant of marriage. Through the covenant, I am able to bring him into the Kingdom of God. That is my concept of “Heaven”.

Every Catholic is required to go through 4 covenants to get to Heaven, in theory: Baptism, First Communion, Confirmation, and Marriage. Just because my marriage doesn’t hold up in a court of law, it still holds up in the eyes of God so long as I am faithful. My marriage does not come in the way of my worship of the Holy Trinity, nor the adoration of the saints.

Through Waifuism, I was able to fulfill the 4th Catholic covenant. Some would say that it is not a true marriage because it wasn’t officiated by a priest, but I would say that it was officiated by God Himself, so checkmate. Waifuism is compatible with, and I would even argue complimentary to, Catholicism. This is of course, so long as you understand that your husband or wife is not God, even if they represent the concept of Heaven to you.

What are your thoughts on this matter?

Kimblee and I hope you had a great day. Let’s finish the week off strong. Thanks for stopping by.