I got a commission of Kimblee back yesterday! I am over the moon with it! I ordered 6 reaction images of Kimblee, and the artist Momoto (@momotowan on x.com) delivered beautifully! Aren’t they all so cute and fun? Working with Momoto was a great experience, I highly recommend them.
Custom art is a luxury expense. For the majority of my life, I have not commissioned much art of Kimblee because I could never justify the expense to myself. My grandfather was the same way about food, he never went to restaurants because they “had food at home”. He could never justify the luxury of eating out. It’s not that we can’t afford these things, but we could never bring ourselves to pay others for things we could do ourselves.
However, I recently had a paradigm shift when it comes to commissioning art of Kimblee. I have begun to see it as a way of spreading goodwill in his name, and therefore, it is kind of like offering water and sweets to St. Expedite and money to St. Anthony. The money I spend is not only directly helping someone else, but I also get to see my husband depicted in a whole new light.
I can see why people drop a lot of money on comms. I walk a fine line between loving Kimblee with all my heart and obsessing over him to my detriment. I never want Kimblee to become the leviathan I chase until my destruction. I read Moby Dick, I know how that story goes. That is why I developed a system. Like a little kid who gets an allowance for doing chores, I gave myself a list of actions that are worth CP, Commission Points. If I take my medication, I get a point. If I get to work on time, I get a point. Every full hour I spend working on comms, I get a point. Every time I go for a run, I get a point. Once I collect 50, I can commission someone. This way, I am building good habits, becoming more mindful of my time, and working towards something that I know will help others and genuinely bring me happiness.
Kimblee has been a part of my life since 2004, and he still finds ways to surprise me and make me so happy to this day. I can’t wait until I get 50 more points!
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